In these pages of tender memories, I have attempted to capture real events as I recall them. These are the intimate histories that life has recorded on the soft and yielding parchment of my own skin. I hope they serve as an appreciation of the benign force of Eros, the primal enamorating urge of life towards its own greater self.

The urge to touch and be touched, to admire and be admired, to hold and be held is an essential part of every human being. A French poet once said "Our bodies are torches that light the way." Without a willingness to pursue my erotic interests, many valuable relationships and enriching experiences would never have entered my life. My personal belief is that Eros is never in error. Regardless of the direction of one's sexuality, its ultimate goal is unity, ecstasy, a sense of belonging to the cosmos, to the Earth and to all its living creatures.

In writing these stories, I've occasionally used the four-letter language that ordinary everyday people use in moments of private passion. My intention is not to shock or offend anyone, but to remind myself that when these words are spoken by mature human beings embracing the wonder and mystery of each other's bodies, they are and always will be words of love. 

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My story "Papabear Beau" has recently been published by Alyson Publications under the editorship of Ron Suresha. It will be given its first public reading at the 2005 International Bear Rendezvous the weekend of February 18-20 at the Ramada Inn, San Francisco Civic Center.

adambenhur@yahoo.com is my pen name and also my email address.  I work at home in Cupertino, California in computer graphics, animation and illustration. Writing my erotic memoirs has been a lot of fun for me and I’ve had several stories published, including “A Flame of Flesh … for Eric” in the West Beach Books anthology  “Buttmen” and “Conversation in a Treehouse … for Birch” published by Men’s Web. My story "Adam's Treehouse ... the making of a bisexual male tribe in Northern California" will be published in the upcoming Haworth Press publication "Bi Men: Coming Out Every Which Way" edited by Pete Chvany and Ron Suresha. So far, all my stories are written from my own life experiences and I hope they ring true for you, the reader, also. You’re welcome to write to me at adambenhur@yahoo.com.  I’d enjoy hearing from you. Take care.